I’ve had a lot of cool wins this year. After the disaster that was last year, the hard work that I’ve put in these last six years is paying off in a bigger way. I’ve lost 93 pounds after a diabetes diagnosis scare. I get to wake up and do whatever I want—work wise—in the places that I love. I’ll travel to 32 amazing countries this year for consulting gigs. My business has done well financially and my relationship with my children is amazing. I have complete freedom in my work, health, and relationships.
Life should be smooth sailing. Right?
You and I aren’t always together. What we see of each other is through this blog, podcasts interviews, videos, and social media. You get a tiny glimpse into my life, and I get a tiny glimpse into yours. During all that time that we’re not together, a whole lot is going on behind the scenes.
I try to be as honest as possible with what I share publicly, but I’m human. There are things that I’m ashamed and embarrassed to admit. I want you to see me as this super cool, take-on-the-world-without-blinking type of guy. I’m not. There are many things that I struggle with but wish I didn’t. Here are six major ones.
1. Envy of other’s success
I’ve had some cool wins, which should make me cheer for joy when I see others also experiencing success. Sometimes I do, but too often, I don’t. I get all kinds of crazy thoughts running through my mind.
I wonder what they did. I wonder why more people didn’t “like” my status update or retweet when I shared my good news? I think twice before liking or sharing their win because “I don’t remember them liking or sharing mine.” I basically act like a teenager all over again. Grow up, KIMANZI! Read more ›